I Blew It!
Written by Kay; Published 4/08/10
I blew it today.
I lost my temper and said things I'd promised myself and God I wouldn't say.
Not just that, but I reacted in the old way when I thought I had dealt with those things and laid them to rest.
I hurt someone when I did that.
It's a bit discouraging after I'd been trying so hard to listen to God and follow His leading. I've purposed to actively release hurts and offenses, I know better than to hold onto them, and renew my mind by the word of God. I failed myself and God today.
Of course, I apologized, but the damage has already been done.
Of course, I repented, but my confidence is badly shaken-not my faith, but my confidence is at a new low.
What do I do now? Do I give up? Where would I go? As the Apostle Peter said, there is no one else with words of eternal life.
The ONLY option is to pick up my badly bruised ego and keep on going. Notice that I said ego, because that is exactly what has been bruised. I'd like to think of myself as beyond this kind of outburst, but, the truth is, all of us are still very much capable of any sin.
The Bible says we are tempted to sin when our fleshly lusts drag at us. As long as we are in this earthly body, we are capable of giving in to sin and our fleshly desires.
James 1:14 ( NIV ) but each one is tempted when, by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed.
God has promised that he will complete the work he has begun in me. I'm glad it is His work. I can see the progress we're making-I just wish it were as visible to others in my life
I pray for the one I hurt, that God will heal and help that one to release and forgive me.
I will keep going and trust God to work it all out as I continue to meditate on God's word and pray. Quitting is definitely NOT an option.
What did you do when you faced a similar situation?
I will lift up my head unto the hills from whence cometh my help
my help comes from the Lord which made heaven and earth. Psalm 121:1-2(KJV)
Psalms 79: 9 ( NIV ) Help us, O God our Savior, for the glory of your name; deliver us and forgive our sins for your name’s sake.
Psalms 42:5-6 ( NIV ) Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
Psalms 27:13-14 ( NIV ) I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.